This doctoral thesis examines how participation in a queer mainstream fan culture contributes to meaning-making in the everyday lives of young people. The study is based on ten months of ethnographic fieldwork with fans aged 15–35, the majority of whom were 15–26. The empirical material consists of interviews, participant observations, and fan-created artworks. Through an ethnographic and queer theoretical approach, the dissertation foregrounds the participants’ own perspectives, with particular attention of time, emotion and everyday life. Across four empirical chapters, the dissertation analyzes different temporal and affective dimensions of fandom.
The first chapter ”enchantment,” examines how fans orient themselves towards enchanting cultural experiences. If queerness in everyday life has been associated with vulnerability and pain, engaging with queer fan cultures offers a new optic through which queerness appears in a different light. Within the enchanted framework, queerness is not only linked to suffering but also to beauty and possibility. The chapter further highlights how a foundational aspect of being a fan, lays in meeting like-minded others and creating a community. The orientation towards enchantment becomes meaningful when experienced collectively with other fans.
The second chapter, ”Ecstasy,” examines how enchantment is intensified through collective ecstatic states. Drawing on empirical material describing fans waiting for a pop concert to begin, the chapter illustrates how playful and seemingly ”silly” forms of joy, generates a shared emotional intensity. Interpreted through queer temporal perspectives, these moments are conceptualized as forms of micro-ecstasy.
The third chapter, ”Escapism,” shifts attention from the intensity of ecstasy to quieter practices characterized by withdrawal, waiting and seclusion. The chapter sheds light on the ”insivible” fans that are less drawn to the social dimensions of fan cultures. They engage with fandom in more private ways. These fans create meningful experiences of enjoyment and emotional attachment in solitude. The findings suggest that escapism becomes significant by providing secluded spaces for comfort, rest and pleasure.
The fourth chapter ”The hangover,” explores the processes through which enchantment transforms to disenchantment. Here, toxic community dynamics, algorithmic platform logics and emotional exhaustion lead fans to renegotiate their sense of belonging within fan communities. This chapter therefor examines the ambivalent and at times painful dimensions of fan culture. Experiences of disenchantment also raise questions concerning future participation and how fans manage their ”personal archives” of fan engagement. Decisions to leave a fan community often involve practices of archiving, erasing or preserving traces of participation. These negeotations are analyzed through queer theocratical perspectives on everyday archiving.
The final chapter ties together the thesis’ main arguments and reflects further upon how ideas of queer temporality can contribute to the field of youth culture studies.